Chemo 8 - halfway done

I almost named this post YAY PLATELETS cause they came back up. Chemo last week was a no-go due to low platelets. So I talked to my platelets all last week/weekend and prayed that they would come up and they did. Now my white blood count is low. So I'll talk to those guys this week and pray over them. And the platelets. I will also give myself my shots this week which should help the white blood count. 

My oncologist is not concerned with the other numbers that are low (L) or high (H) so I'm not too worried either. 

I have been having pain in my breast and under my arm this whole time - that's what I felt before I could even feel the lumps. The pain has continued during chemo. My oncologist said its not normal, but also not unheard of. Some people can feel the tumor shrinking. So that's what I tell myself this is. Pain from the cancer dying. So I talk to it too when I feel pain. I just say "get out of my body." So if you see me talking to myself aloud, I have not gone off the deep end just yet. You are welcome to tell it to get the hell out as well. 

Cookie boy was training a new cookie boy today. He had a little trouble getting rid of his cookies today. Brian got 2 but cookie boy came back twice offering more. We declined. 

My oncologist's sweet nurse went in an hour early today to access my port and draw my blood so I could go get another echo of my heart to check on it from the first chemo drugs that I had. We brought her a Starbucks to thank her. She is so nice!

My oncologist did an exam today and said that just by feeling the breast and underarm, there has been considerable shrinkage. She actually said "it's showing a really good response to chemo." Which is huge for her to say cause she's not exactly the most upbeat person. (For what it's worth, if I had to talk/think/diagnose cancer all day, I would have a hard time being upbeat. Thank God kindergarten is way more fun than that!) Anyway, it made me feel a little better to hear that because I worried all week last week that with me missing chemo it might start to grow or spread. And all I could do was pray that it never, ever grows or spreads or comes back anywhere in my body. And talk to my platelets. So that's what I did for a week. I actually want the chemo every week because I need it to kill every cancerous cell in my body. I wish it didn't make all my hair fall out (even my eyebrows are looking sad) but if that's what it takes to kill it, I'll gladly trade looking like Voldemort for having cancer. 

People have been so kind to send cards and emails and texts and pray for me and our family. I appreciate it so much! More than I could ever say. We will take all the prayers we can get.